While the rest of the world was obsessing over Seth Rogen and James Franco over the holidays, I was having my own panic attack about the biggest interview of my life.
Last fall, I completed the greatest internship in the world and knew that when I graduated, I had to work for this company. I would not be satisfied until this happened; no other job would do. I worked my ass off trying to prove myself, stayed in touch with the company and continued to build my "perfect" resume.
Fast forward to weeks before graduation, I was FINALLY called in for an initial interview and writing test...a three and a half hour writing test. Then, the waiting game. After weeks of hearing nothing, I had lost hope. I was about to graduate and be unemployed, just like everyone else. Yay!
But then the day came; I was called in for the final interview. I had made it. They had narrowed it down to six candidates, and I was lucky enough to be one of them. I felt like I was trying to impress the man of my dreams. I bought a new outfit and practiced what I was going to say. They had to love me. I left the interview feeling confident and excited. I thought, "Psh, I nailed it."
Long story short, I didn't nail it. I didn't get the job, and I was devastated. The feeling was worse than any heartbreak a boy could ever cause. I did everything right. How was this possible? But there was nothing I could do. I spent the rest of the holiday season moping and feeling sorry for myself. I had no idea what I was going to do. This was the only thing I wanted.
Then I forced myself to snap out of it and reevaluate what I really wanted. When I really think about it, I have absolutely no idea what I want. I'm clueless about my career and future, and THAT'S OKAY. So what now?
A wise friend told me, "Do what makes you happy right now until you find what makes you happy forever." So what is that for me? I'm becoming a certified yoga instructor because that is exactly what makes me happy right now. Is it a long term plan? Probably not. But who cares? We are entirely too young to be this caught up in the future.
My advice: find what makes you happy, and do it. If not now, when?
A Nashville native, Emily graduated with a Public Relations degree from Belmont University in December 2014. Until she discovers a way to be a professional groupie, her post-grad plan is "there is no plan." Emily enjoys writing, discovering new music and devoting entirely too much of her time to social media. Follow her on Twitter @emilykyoung and on Instagram @theemilyyoung for music and kitten updates mainly.
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